The First Act of Insight
“The First Act of Insight”
Mixed media + encaustic on 140# hot press water color paper.
“I’m tired to trying to find the answers. I’m going to just BE” as if the courage to “just be” isn’t the most potent answer of all.
“I don’t know what I’m supposed to do so I’ll just do this little thing that sounds fun” as if a next right step in small joy isn’t the most kind answer of all.
“I don’t know what I’m supposed to do with my art but I just love making it” as if having something you love to do isn’t the most generous answer of all.
I’ve collected a lot of answers over time and most of them look like unimpressive, lumpy, round rocks. A few have cracked in half, though, and revealed a small cavern of shimmering design…evidence that answers can look like a lot of unimpressive things. They can be a little thought that you can’t shake, a nudge to do something “just for fun”, or an idea that you really want to grow.
One of my favorite unimpressive answers of all is stamina. When I have been given the stamina to keep pursuing something I care about even when it seems like I’m dragging a dead cat through the street, it’s only a matter of time before the clarity comes that is needed to eliminate the little dead weight thoughts that keep me from feeling free.
What I know for SURE is that answers are not out of reach, but believing + repeating that I “don’t know” is what keeps them unreachable. Maybe it would be more true to say that they remain unknowable because answers aren’t things to acquire. They are frequencies to tune in to. They are available - to me and to you - in any moment…especially when we recognize that they often show up dressed much more humbly and unassuming than expected. 🌱